Dealing with depression can be very difficult thing. When I was at my lowest I thought what is the point of being here? who would care? who wouldn't miss me? . I went through my mind of all the things I could do to end it all, I did try a few times and failed thankfully but I did get to that point I've just giving up, but the thing that kept me in this world was my family. I have friends but in my mind I was a burden and I had just lost and very important person in my life and I thought I would lose them too. So I didn't really think I I had much more to lose but I would have lost I would of lost out seeing my sister my brothers grow up seeing my family my mum and everything else I never really told anyone thiswhy are only a few people and people are very surprised when they hear that because even though I was sad they didn't realise how sad I was after I attempted I went to my doctor and he got me in with a psychologist and I was diagnosed with depression I always had it in some way would dealing with things as a child with alcoholism in the family, bullying, loss of my dad but strange thing is that never got me down was my disability until I got judged for it it really made me feel low and I had never hate being disabled I had always made fun with it light Hearted . Anyway I'm rambling the reason I'm posting this is that with everything that I went through or felt there is someone there to help you there always is it might not be family, friends but talk to your doctor teacher a good samaritan never give up always remember that your a strong person to never give up. To quote Spike Milligan we might see the darkest of days but we said the brightest of sunsets.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
today was a somber affair the team lost and are out of the league. so when the lads asked me to get an interview with the players i waited till the players had time to get over their loss before we bombarded them, but luckily we got all the interviews we needed